I know I am losing...

Some weight that is, certain clothes aren't fitting me anymore...too big. I have more energy and now can walk alot longer than before. I don't need any fitness equipment to get me into shape. I am doing all on my own. Walking, watching what I eat and drinking lots of water. Not to mention I have cut my drinking pop way down to a very little amount. I am so proud of myself. I just wish I could lose the weight faster. But I figure if I do it on my own and with exercise. I should be good to go.

Well its Monday, and I've been late getting things done these last couple of days and its my only day off. I really have alot to accomplish today. Like getting the house in tip top shape. Not sure what time my Son will be home...NOT SOON ENOUGH FOR ME.

Walking thru the store.

At work the other day, in the middle aisle they put stuff on clearance like TV Stands, dressers, tables, chairs and other misc. stuff. Well the other day this guy was staring at these silk flowers
and I overheard him asking if they are out in the garden center. The lady goes, no those are fake. And he goes...NOOOO. Do you have those in the garden center, real ones? The lady goes, Sir I am not sure I work in the Mens Clothing. The look on his face was priceless because I don't think he expected that answer from her. I walked up to the guy and told him no we don't have that kind. It was just a funny expression and it truly made me giggle inside.

Rough day.

And it doesn't seem to get any better. Today at work, we are low on supplies and I had to phone in an order of requested items. I really like to please my customers. So while waiting on the phone, I was sitting in my van trying to focus on the task at hand, I dropped both of my bic pens on the floorboard of the van. I had to get out and look for them. I have certain pens I use, which we all have those. I found them just in time for when Anthony my In House Rep answered. I got all my orders requested, and we shall receive another 20 some carts of flowers. I sure hope we can get it stocked for this weekend. I hate being empty.

My Friend Dawn..

Is selling some items, well she is now a Consultant for a popular cooking items. And recently she's been interested in finding ways to promote herself like with personalized name tags, cards and other items to use. Maybe if I let her know about Vista Print coupons she could actually find something on there she can use. I really would like for her to be successful in her journey as its something she's been wanting for years. Ever since I met her, she's been wanting this. I think she will go far. I would like to as well but do not know if I will be as successful as her. If anyone deserves this, it is her.

I just can't do it.

Keep up on both my blogs anymore. I've been so busy lately, its not even funny. I have to decide and make a decision. Work has been extremely busy, I can't see how that many people can keep wanting flowers and stuff for their gardens. I swear the same two people come in at least ONCE a day. Not kidding you. And its not like they come in for discounted stuff because we don't sell it.

But anyway, I am trying to decide if I want to go to Scouts tonight. I had a issue with one of a Boy Scouts over the weekend and I really need to talk to the Scout leader as I was treated so rudely and he needs to be spoken to about it.

Its Thursday!!!

And my Show is on. I love my ER. I've been watching it now for over 10 years. How sad is that? I simply love it, some of the characters are the same. Even though the more "popular" have since left the show.

Well, I still have to finish packing here for our camping trip tomorrow evening. I am nervous.

Instead.

Of going where we went last time to Missouri, I think we should stay in one of the Branson resorts. To find a new place that we haven't been to. That is my goal this Summer after I am done with work. I guess I need to make it thru this weekend to survive. I am so not ready for this at all. I am nervous, and afraid of having a panic attack. I tried to reassure myself and to my boss that it will be ok. But after the issue with my battery going kaput on me today, I think my anxiety level was severely tested. Nobody knows what I went thru today, and what was worse. The person I depend on the most wasn't there for me cause he started his new job today as well. Its not his fault my battery died, I was aware that it was going bad. I guess I shouldn't push important stuff like that.

Wish I could..

Turn back time. When I lived up in Rockford back in 1995 I had one of the best jobs ever. Even though it was a trucking company I simply loved the job. I wish I could find a job like that around here. It was a dream job, good pay, benefits, vacations, and everything else that people take for granted. While at that job I met some wonderful people, there was one person who had a heart of gold. I can't remember her name but she sat next to me in our desks. She suffered from fibromyalgia and I could tell the pain she suffered every day. But she would always have a smile on her face. She told me once, "if I lived every day and went along with the pain my life would be worthless...I choose live thru the pain and love life." I often wonder where she's at in her life, among the other wonderful people I met.

Next time...

We go to Missouri, I would like to find some of the great tourist sites. I love looking at nature and enjoying life. I had so much fun while down in Missouri a couple of years ago, especially while we were showing the kids the hills and some of the attractions we visited while we were there alone. My boyfriend had mentioned in finding some real estate Branson. I did a double take on what he said, he had actually meant to say real estate in Branson. I think it was the medicine that he rubbed on his skin because his arm was sore or something it really was a strong scent...lol.

I wish I could share the scent but it will knock everyone out..lol.

While I am ...

Shopping for a new mattress for my Son's bed I may find one for myself. We don't have a bed frame for our bed, as it just sits on the floor. I am tired of having my bed so close to the floor and want a normal bed. Please. For once. The cats seem to enjoy using our bed as a racetrack in the mornings. I have physical proof on my side. Evil kitties. I love them though. They are my babies, two of which helped be born into this world.

Anyhow, I am sitting here now arguing with my Son to go take his bath. But I think he's afraid since he burned his hand tonight. I do need to go check it and make sure there are no blisters or anything. I do know the soup was extremely hot when he was pouring it, he spilled some on the floor. Of course first thing out of my mouth was. Are you alright? I think he's alright but going to double check.

Shopping for a new tv.

Awhile back, we had a nice Sony Bravia, big flat screen but the money situation is touch and go so we let it go back. We may get it back in the near future now that the financial situation will improve slightly. We tend to live paycheck to paycheck. I thank goodness we didn't chose the other tv, otherwise we would of had a plasma mount still mounted on the wall. We rearranged the living room so it would of looked funny now. Now we have to figure out where we are going to put the Tv when we get one again. Cause the TV is in the corner. And we have this huge window that takes up the whole wall.

Ahh, I am getting aggravated right now. The same commercial keeps playing every 10 minutes.

New shoes?

I noticed today that my shoes are starting to get ruined. I need a pair of shoes for work that are at least waterproof. Or I will end up getting a new pair of shoes sometime this Summer. My boyfriend needs a new pair as well, so does my Son. I think my Son will get his first. Why? because I love my Son so much and would do anything for my baby. I like to find a pair of Dansko shoes, they seem to be really comfortable. But who knows, I have to watch my money this Summer. I plan on making a couple of car payments so I can get ahead of the game since I don't know about child support as usual. Anyone else play that game?

Thought about.

Getting a new bed for my Son's room. The bed he has is in not the best of shape. And my Son deserves a half way decent bed so he can get a good nights sleep for school. Maybe I should get a memory foam mattress for him. It comes with a base with it as well and the best part its all part of a bed that comes in the box. Well enough said, no frames to mess with...nothing.

I do have to find my Son a new dresser, the one he has is falling apart. I may buy him one in Sept. when I receive some money. I mean that is what Child Support is for right? I will be glad when the day comes that my Ex is caught up, and doesn't get behind. Makes no sense ya know?

I was thinking..

A couple weeks ago my Sister and her Husband went up to Schaumburg for my Niece's cheer competition, they should of went online to get some hotel deals because the place they stayed at overcharged their account and was basically a end to their weekend. It happened the time before that when I went to Chicago with them. I don't trust too many hotels nowadays. Even though when we went to St.Louis a couple of years ago, we paid cash and that was it. Deal done, stayed two nights which was a blast. I want to do it again. Because it was a nice getaway from the kids, life, work and everything else with it.

I am nervous...

I have some medical appts. coming up and I am nervous about it. I have to get a MRI done on my chest as they found a lump. I am scared but I can't let it get to me. I just may head to Pigeon Forge cabins in the Smokey Mountains to just get away from all the chaos. Especially after this weekend and how busy my work is going to be. A vacation will be much needed. We have spent the last three days busting our behinds to get the work, tables set up, plants out and all the good stuff to make the store look good. I've only worked about 5 hours a day, and its the first time since Sept./Oct. since I have worked really hard. So my body isn't used to working so hard.

After my appt...

Today I had thought about a few things. The nurse asked if I was pregnant, you know the regular questions they ask you. I told her I wished I was but that isn't going to happen anytime soon so I guess I won't be needing any maternity clothes anytime soon. I was so embarrassed though while the doctor was examining me. I am proud of the surgery I had, and would do it again in a heartbeat but after the surgery I noticed more of my body than ever and I am extremely self-conscience about my body.

I love this scenery, I love the park its just beautiful!!!

Guess what?

I started in on my tanning today. Yep. Sure did. Actually I started two days ago, and for anyone's information. If your outside, and its still Spring you DO BURN. Yes, I have proof. The back of my neck, my arms and my face. All a pretty color of red. Right now I am sitting here in the house, temp. reads 70 degrees on the house. And I am burning up. Sucks!!!

Just got a phone call.

From this wonderful lady named Rose. She is my Field Rep. for the temp. job I have. I am so excited. She wants me to start tomorrow. So guess what? I am going to earn some money tomorrow. I am determined to earn some extra money, and save it for over the winter. I would like to get my car payments ahead a few months.

Oh my goodness, I am watching NBC news and see that the Pope is coming for a visit. And how they are training the Secret Service for his visit. Its amazing at how people think.

Did you have fun last weekend?

I did, and if I could do it over again...I would. I spent most of Saturday alone, which by the way is fabulous. I love my family, and my Son. But whoa. Its nice to be alone, get some thinking time in. I spent some money at the scrapbooking store though. I can't help it. I am addicted. I love scrapbooking and I am hoping to get involved with it here over the summer. I need to set a goal to do that. But right now, not too sure.